|
Dec 22, 2019, 05:07 AM
|
 |
|
|
Member Since: Dec 2018
Location: New Jersey
Posts: 6,008
|
|
This isn't directed at anyone here. When I use the word 'you' it is a general you aimed at society and ignorance.
I have bipolar II, GAD, PTSD and ADHD. I have taken medication for it for over 15 years and my last inpatient stay was in 2003 and they found the perfect cocktail and I have been stable ever since. I know I am extremely lucky to be stable and not have to keep experimenting. I was lucky to have a really good doctor for 20 years. She just retired and I had my first appt with the new doctor and thank God she's agreed to continue care without forcing any changes on me.
I don't tell people that I am bipolar unless they are close with me or the topic comes up and I feel it would be helpful.
I have heard too many comments from ignorant assholes about "those people on depression meds", "crazy people", "hyperactive adhd people" etc. People that didnt know I was a person with mental illness have made jokes about meds in front of me or passed judgement about medication around me. If I feel its worth it to disclose and inform I do, but most times they show their true colors with those comments and I ignore them- no sense in wasting my time.
If I did not start on my bipolar medication there is no telling what my alcoholism would have done to me. The fugue states I experienced would have continued to wreck my family and I would be going in and out of the hospital like a revolving door. My life is amazing and complete because of medication.
I also take adhd medication and have for 14-15 years. I am sick of hearing people compare it to legal speed, assume all people with adhd are like hyper little boys, or look at the motivation aspects of it as a flaw that I choose to have. I am literally a hazard on the road driving without medication. Imagine trying to pay attention to traffic and signs and lights while three people in your cars are talking with each other and you- that is what driving without medication is like for me.
Imagine walking into a room for something- picking up something else and leaving with it having forgotten the original thing you wanted, being late all the time or leaving something big to the last minute- that is what its like for me.
There is nothing wrong with me taking medication. There is nothing wrong with anyone who takes medication.
What about chronic pain patients? No, they are not lazy looking for "legal heroin". They are taking medication so they can function with the least amount of pain possible. They are not cry babies.
No one blinks an eye about blood pressure, cholesterol, diabetes or heartburn medication. So why mental illness meds? What gives anyone the right to judge?
Your judgement is why so many people here and elsewhere share their concerns about becoming "dependent" on medication- needing it to function. They may resist or be non-compliant because they are playing the tape of your judgy words in their heads. They are getting messages from their loved ones and society that they are a failure, not good enough or weak because they need medication.
If you do not know how brain chemistry works, or how medication helps correct that chemistry then kindly go F yourself. Get educated. Understand the illnesses and symptoms. Put yourself in my shoes.
Imagine not being able to control things going on in your mind or your emotions and being told that its your own fault and that medication(scientifically studied, proven and effective) is just a cop out?
I love my life and I am blessed.
Seriously, F off.
__________________
"I carried a watermelon?"
President of the no F's given society.
|