Holidays are rough, no matter what state of mind you're in. This one will be just a little harder than others for me. It's the first one where I am truly going to be alone at the end of the day.


These verses of this song sum it up for me.

"Cause I don't know you anymore,
I don't recognize this place,
the picture frames have changed and so has your name,
We don't talk much anymore,
we keep running from the pain,
but what I wouldn't give to see your face again..."


Why is the hardest thing to do is to let go? ugh... anyway.

I am generally feeling low. I feel stuck in a lot of senses. The world is moving all around me but nothing ever changes with me. It's a dull and dreary experience.

This is my life, I suppose. I have to learn to deal with it.



Marcus