Thanks for the replies skeezyks and splits.

I do want the support you're talking about skeezyks, that's the main reason I want to post about it. Support, I think, would help me feel better about the fact that it happened and I could possibly get ideas to move past it. Possibly.

I like the idea of writing it down in word first splits. I may do that this afternoon. If I can... It may still be hard to write it there.