This is my first chat line ever. I grew up at a time when emotions were not acknowledged and now I'm virtually unable to admit and describe them. I am fortunate to have a patient psychologist, but after more than a year, even he is getting disgusted with me. But, I am so heartened just to know someone cared enough to reply - THANK YOU! I wish you all the best and I hope to be here for you too, if I don't feel too embarrassed about all this in the meantime...