Today is the Sunday before Christmas. I have moved down to Tegusegulpa the captial and largest city in Hondoras where there is better and more medical care. There is a psychotheraispit in one of the hospitals I am going to try to get into see. Moving down here makes me calmer. My exxhusband and I have resoolved most of our differences and invited me ddown here and found the psychotherapist. I feel calmer, but not much change in depression.

I am a writer, and am very upset with myself that I cannot get the energy up to finish putting my novel on Amazon. I just seem to have lost all interest in anything. However, it has been a huge shock, a truly hurtful one that I seem to have lost my interest in writing. I have been writing since I was 4 years old. Have tons of material written, esp. on Alexander the Great, I have studied him the last 30 years or so,written 2 books about him but not seriously published them other than on the Internet. People are after me to get them seriously published. It is a sign that my depresssion is so bad I cannot even write about Alexander who is sort of like the other side of myself. I don't know what will become of me if I cannot get myself back to writing. It is all I have truly ever lived for.

All for now. Take care to anyone who should read this. I really appreciate people's help. more than I cAN EVER truly express. Sorry for the poor typing errors. It is a sign of how poorly I am doing.

May the Gods bless everyone with joy on Christmas.