I'm much calmer now. Tomorrow begins the last week, and I've made a decision. I'm going to do everything I've been doing so far, except that this time I'll try to enjoy this week as much as I can. I can't let my thoughts spoil my experience. I have to be happy, because I've met amazing people there who has made me feel integrated and I've felt useful and productive for the first time in my life. And I'm glad I experienced it with those employees, especially with this man I met.

I'm going to think positive. If he's in his desk once I arrive I'll ask him how he is, just like any coworker. Whenever I have the chance, I'll tell him how much I enjoyed that conversation we had and how I'd like to repeat it. And I'll bring up my interest to keep in touch once again. Even if he made up an excuse or even if he were honest and told me he doesn't want to (I don't think that'll happen, but I must be prepared for that possibility) I have nothing to fear or regret. Looking on the bright side, like I said, I'm glad I met him and like he told me that night I'll have many disappointments in my life. But that mustn't ruin my experience overall.

Will I be OK if things go wrong? No. But will that make my internship a bad experience? It won't either.

There's definitively something I must do that will benefit me for the rest of my life: I've got to learn not to overthink too much. All the times I've had a headache or having trouble sleeping is not worth it, especially if that won't change anything. And getting rid of these recurrent paranoid thoughts I usually have would make my life much easier...

I also must learn to value myself and not let anyone affect my own happiness.

Not me, for sure!