Hi, I'm pretty new, though I've been lurking here for a while.

I have a question in regards to coming to rely on my therapist. I have been in T for about a year and a half for depression and PTSD related to childhood physical/verbal abuse. We have worked a lot on me trusting him, managing my fears and startles, and believing that it happened. I'm still working on being angry about what happened and dealing with my shame (one of these days I'll be able to look at him!).

Anyway. I worry that I am becoming dependent. Thinking about what I need to discuss this week, I realize that I want to--need to--hear him reassure me that the abuse was not my fault, that there was nothing innate in me that caused it. I realize this is a good place for me to be heading, to stop blaming myself, but the fact that I seem to need to hear it from him to even begin to believe it--that concerns me.

Is this a natural part of the therapy process? Has anyone had similar experiences? I am generally quite stoic and independent to a fault (my lack of intimate relationships is an issue we've only scratched the surface of), so this is bizarre to me.