When I feel like you do, I visualize myself standing in the middle of a torrential rainstorm. Then I ask myself, "how long do I want to stand here, getting soaked, letting the rain sting my face, soak my clothes, and feel cold." When I feel stuck, I visualize myself stuck in a very uncomfortable torrential rainstorm. So, my only choice is to allow myself to feel the emotions I repress. But it's not easy for me, as my dreams constantly reflect.

Our feelings are not wrong. We have to feel and process them to heal. I have a very hard time expressing my feelings and tend to repress them which is not healthy at all.

Have you used your therapy sessions at all to express your repressed feelings? That's probably the safest place you can do it. With the guidance of a therapist.