I'm so frustrated. I feel like i can't cope with life. I feel so weak and incompetent and exhausted. I've been ordering my groceries online even tho it's expensive because i can't deal with going out. Today they came and a pharmacy item i urgently needed was not delivered so i had to go out to get it which ruined the whole point of the delivery. I cried as i put on my boots and coat to go out. The bus journey and the mall were as dirty and noisy and crowded as i expected.

Then i had technical difficulties on the computer. First i couldn't join an email loop, then my new cell phone plan wants me to do some nonsense on their site, then the grocery delivery company sent me a confused email about the free delivery program i signed up for. I am just so f_ck!ng sick of the f_ck!ng computer!

I just feel so overwhelmed and helpless. I'm becoming an invalid, a shut-in. It's only going to get worse as i get older. There's no one to help me with the tasks of daily living. My eyes sting from crying. I just feel like giving up.