I totally get this. Except, I don't do the old, I had some really bad experiences a few years ago and realized it just was not the right time. Honestly, I distract myself by watching a movie or something similar. I decided I wanted to learn about a certain topic that interested me, and most of what I watch have to do with that topic, I'm learning new things. I think other people might be better at answers. I just wanted you to know that I have feelings like that too.