I just need to talk to someone or to just write what I am feeling right now because I can’t stop crying and need an outlet. I am in college right now and have usually been a good student while dealing with constant depression. I have been able to keep it to myself and deal with things in life. This last year has been hell for me and I am slipping to the point where I haven’t been to class in two weeks. I know I should go but I can’t do it in the end because I just have a mental breakdown and keep thinking of suicide and hurting myself. I know this is stupid because all it does is perpetuate the cycle. I hate myself for doing this but I can’t deal with it. I have always been able to pick myself up from these severe depression slumps but I don’t think I can this time. I just keep failing. The sad thing is, is that no one in my life seems to even notice when I ask them for help--they are too busy. I don't blame them considering I know how busy life can be. I just need someone to talk to here because no one in my life understands me and I can't afford to get professional help. please...