Anxiety Princess - lots has changed in those 15 years. I also learned there really weren't any treatments for PTSD back then. "Your brain gets rewired, and it's permanent", and about the best one could hope for was learning to deal with the symptoms. Happily, that is no longer the case. New meds are coming out, showing promise. New treatments. EMDR helped me quite a bit - until my therapist stopped that, because I apparently dissociate, and so now I have to work on that first, because it complicates the effectiveness (I think is how to describe it.) There's also a "stellar ganglion block" (I think that's what it is) injection that is showing real promise. So here's hoping your situation does change soon, and you can begin exploring what would be best for you. There have been huge advancements in the treating of PTSD - so hold onto the hope that you will be able to find something effective for you.