My team is questioning my bipolar and psychosis vs IDK? Anxiety? I explode inside vs outwardly. Currently I went from BP1 to BP2 w. Anxiety. I feel like they’re getting ready to strip BP. I know I need to talk to my team but T doesn’t like labels. Anxiety is easy for me to talk about. Depression/suicide is too dark. Paranoia too scary. Mania I’m too ashamed to mention. I see pdoc 4-6x a year for 10-15 min and T every 2-3 weeks for 1 hr. T starts a conversation about mania I’m vague and eventually the subject gets changed. I feel like I look more functional than I am. I learned last session T doesn’t even know I have disordered eating. How do I get my struggles out so they can help?
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Me- SzA
Husband- Bipolar 1
Daughter- mood disorder+
Comfortable broken and happy
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