I’m having more self harm dreams again. Not sure why. Three in the last week. At least. I don’t like them. I got a break from them for a few months and now they’re back. Maybe I’m just stressed about Christmas.

Speaking of, I’ve now attempted fudge twice and it failed. I attempted ginger cookies and those failed, though at least they’re still edible (the fudge wasn’t). I’m leery about trying the other two recipes.

I’m really struggling today. I feel like I could burst into tears at at moment. I’m sure it’s just stress. I will be happy tomorrow when all I have to do is make it to my gma’s. Then it wil all be ok.