I'm just roasting in shame and guilt and remorse about how i embarrassed myself last Fall during my hypomanic episode and in the aftermath. I feel so humiliated every time i think about it. I sent my neighbor a Christmas message and an apology for being so weird last Fall as i was very hostile to her when she has helped me out and shown me many kindnesses scores of times and didn't deserve my negativity. I'm just glad i get long quiet days to rest and try and process this avalanche of smothering feelings without the demands of Christmas celebrations.