I am here. I am ready to take the road to recovery. I have been bulimic for years. It's all I know. I don't know how to be normal. I tell myself over and over again that I can stop!!! But I can't. I don't know why. You know what the worst thing is.... I can't go to the doctors. I can, but my job. I am in a career, where if I have this on my record, I'm done!! I might as well just start over. Is it possible to do this by myself. I keep sliding downward and I have to grab a hold of something! I don't even know where to start. <font color="green"> </font> <font color="green"> </font>