I was triggered by a reply about meds to me and also some common cognitive distortions that some professionals also used (and it felt used against me )
I don't know if that makes sense.

I was trying to say that some of the labels that have been tossed out at me by professionals were not accurate and certainly not helpful.... but also fed into some of my ''worst thoughts'' planted by toxic parental units about being ''intrinsically worthless'' and ''not suitable for life''

I wasn't meaning I was ''going away'' although I do wish I could sometimes when I don't have anything to numb the pain and especially when I am reminded of that (when not expecting it)

A doctor told me a while back ''it wasn't the right thing to do'' stopping the med without going back to request a different med... in a sense she was ''right'' but I didn't want to go down the road of...… ugh.... further allergy testing etc.

Basically I find some of the language in the DSM etc insulting and wrong.