I know how you feel but I know its not me now.(Bipolar) I'm so honest with my feelings that I can pick up on alot of people are trying so hard to hide from others .My feelings are right out there for everyone to see I think thats why I feel their against me .

I find my self lacking friends as well. My best friend I don't talk to know more Let's just say we were together for a year wont be a big deal but I've been with my wife for 23 years Its a long stories so I wont getting into it but they both knew . I find myself missing her alot (not for sex) .Good friends are hard to find so when you lose one it hurts.