My neighbor who i emailed an apology to got back to me and said there was no need and that she was just glad i am feeling better. So that was nice. I also got two computer tasks done so i don't feel so incompetent. I got my phone connected to my WiFi and cancelled my bus pass auto-renew. So i'll have that $120 a month savings to put towards my online groceries and enjoy The Great Indoors all Winter long! ( @~Christina: I know you don't approve but i really feel this is best for me at this time.) I've been sitting quietly in the dark and silence and the negative feelings i wrote about earlier have loosened their grip on me. Some might think this is a shi!!y way to spend Christmas Eve but i feel lucky to have the peace and privacy and let my emotions run their course.

@Nammu: So nice to hear about your church and all the care and consideration they are giving to the little ones. Last year i went to a Christmas Pageant at church and one of the little Shepherdesses couldn't stop running around in her light-up sneakers!

Hugs to all!