There's something very wrong if you are feeling THIS badly and you can't speak to your husband about it. Can you go stay with a trusted friend for a few days so you at least can be with someone who you can speak to about it? The only way to heal is to be around people who promote your healing. It does not sound like your husband is someone who promotes your healing if he cannot be there for you to listen and validate and support you. What's worse is that having to bottle it all up around him, what it sounds like, is even worse for your healing.

I am not one to promote going to the hospital unless you are in fact suicidal or in danger of self harm, because I know all too well how poor the quality of care in a hospital can be, as well as the fact that they pretty much are only equipped to deal with people in imminent danger from self-harm/suicide. If you don't fit into that drastic of a category, then the hospital will likely be traumatizing. I think the best bet would be to go stay with a friend who is willing to listen and provide a safe, healing space for you away from whatever is causing this trauma. Based on your statement of going from one abusive BF to another, I am concerned your husband is also abusive?

It doesn't sound like going to the hospital will be helpful to you. But could you get online and do an emergency therapy appointment with an online therapist (better than nothing)? Or, as I suggested, as a big favor of a friend to allow you a safe space in a guest bedroom or sofa for a couple of nights to relax and let your guard down?

I hope you feel better soon. Stay safe.