I’m very sorry you lost your cat. I’m especially sorry you had to go through this loss all alone. You have been treated horribly by this man. I know how much your heart is hurting right now but just keep facing the pain and find your strength. You do have strength and you need it for yourself right now. Never go back to this guy. He is not your friend and he will only hurt you. You are lucky to be free of him, you just don’t realize it yet. It takes time to grieve and build ourselves back up. Please put yourself first and take good care of yourself.