Hello Krpeirce: I noticed this is your first post here on PC. Welcome to Psych Central.
I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support.
Here's a link to an article, from Psych Central's archives, by our host Dr. John Grohol, Psy.D. on the subject of eating disorders:
Eating Disorders: Symptoms, Types & Treatments | Psych Central
I hope you find PC to be of benefit.