Well Christmas did not go as well as Thanksgiving. I guess she was no longer just happy to see me after 3 years away. She an push my buttons in an instant. I am not looking forward to seeing you tomorrow and I am sure you will not be happy to see me or hear about the state of my head. I am not in a good place and I am not in the mood to discuss it with you. Just be grateful that you did not have the childhood I had or have to still experience the fallout of a lifetime of abuse. Holidays are the absolute worst time of year. Why can't we include holidays in the PC culture of the US right now. The constant pushing of "holiday happiness" gushing out of every inch of the media and society is extremely disturbing for some people and there is currently only one way to avoid it. I know this will never happen but I wish the world could be more sensitive to people struggling during the holidays.