Sorry you're struggling, Oliver.

Maybe this pdoc will be okay. You did say before that you wanted help really badly, so why not give this doctor a chance? Worst case, the doctor is bad and you decide to never go back. Best case, you get the help you want and need in order to feel better.

Personally, I have had bad pdocs who pissed me off, so I know how upsetting it can be, but there are always good ones out there. You never know until you try someone if they're good or bad. Of course, I know it can be frustrating when you've had several bad pdocs in a row, but not every single one is bad. In fact, I encourage you to tell your pdoc when something he or she says upsets you. Sometimes doctors don't know they're pissing you off unless you tell them. Heck, you can even tell this pdoc outright what your concerns are with your treatment plan.

Good luck with whatever you decide.