Thanks for this SeeSaw. I had kind of forgotten, and you reminded me. A big part of why I quit was my last therapist was constantly trying to get me to go on medications. I really, really didn't want to do that. I realized that, looking at it through her eyes, it was hard to make the argument that I was functioning "well enough" to not need meds if I was self-harming.

I've had the urge (rarely, but it happens) since then. But, I think I'd need to let my neurofeedback guy know if I did (since he's trying to help me treat my brain, it seems relevant) - but he's NOT a therapist. So, it would be awkward, and I don't want to put him in that position.

Twitch Sorry - I totally understand about the Ts you've seen. It's really unfortunate. I wish I could connect you with my last T! Even though she didn't work out for me, she was very, very non-shaming about the self-harm, and talked a lot about how it can come about.

I'm sorry to hear about your marriage. Lots of warm thoughts to you.