So, I guess I'll just add some more of what's been going on with me. I've posted a little about this in other forums, but they all seem to be pretty dead at the moment. Ok, so I had this online group I was talking to. Made a best friend, made another best friend but she turned into an enemy. Well, long story short, I was eventually rejected by the group even though to me, SHE was the problem. Anyway, my best friend followed me to Facebook. SHE was there too. Eventually, she won the attention of this best friend and I was unfriended. But I can still view the public profiles, right? Because this was such a hard loss, I was still following the best friend. It was comforting at first, about a year, and then I checked again about a week ago and guess what? I saw a pic of the friend and the enemy embracing. Now realize this, the friend lives on the other side of the world from the enemy and me, but one of them had made the trip to see the other. Upon further review, it appears it has been 3 months that they've been spotted together now. So, does this mean they're together now???!!! Like, did one move to the other? I was extremely hurt and jealous with a feeling of betrayal when I first saw this. I've had a good few days to talk to people and process a little, but I think this is going to be a lifetime type of thing that I'll be dealing with. Anyone have any thoughts or advice about what I should do? I feel like I'm going to continue to check up on these people for a long time, unless someone convinces me with a story about this being a bad thing. (This is an obsession and I'm totally attached to this group, especially those few).

Which brings me to a few other issues. Looking up former friends online (including those "friends" I had mentioned in another post, which I still may delete/edit at some point. Anyway) just kinda reminiscing a lot lately and having dreams about my past. Honestly, my present is much better and much healthier than those days in many ways, but I still miss things....probably the sex. Like, I was "hypersexual" (???) and had several partners...this was good, exciting and gave me a thrill... why do I still have this desire for having multiple partners despite being in a healthy loving marriage? I don't know. But I'm just struggling with these things lately.
Finally to top it off, I've got my celebrity obsessions/crushes. I feel like they are somewhat healthy as in a distraction,...except when say they do something sexy and I get excited.
Why am I so on about sex lately?? This was one of the things that made me think I may have had bipolar. Hypersexuality. Or is it just like a porn addiction type thing (don't really watch porn, but you know, the sex scenes in movies with hot guys kinda things)
Ok, I'm done.