It’s 3:30am and I’m not tired. It’s okay I slept 11 hrs last night. I’m still worried that anything I say will incriminate me and I’ll be arrested but H says it’s untrue. I’m calmer about it at least. He wants to talk to my T but I haven’t talked to T about how’d she handle that so IDK. I’m supposed to call next week and see if there’s an appointment. We got into an argument tonight about me not being assertive enough with my treatment team. That they don’t know what to do when I smile and laugh (because I’m nervous) while saying horrible things. One pdoc said my affect is often wrong.