This could be just my experience but I feel as if my T sends me these messages indirectly. I'm so suggestible that this isn't too far fetched but help me decide if you can.

For example, last session I asked him for a child psychologist recommendation. Long story about my son and his seizures but the point is he recommended this woman who just happens to specialize in DBT/Borderlines/PTSD etc.

Now he knows me so well because of course I looked her up and read her website and now I'm angry.

Before I left last session, I asked him if I do go with her would he need to consult and he said no because he didn't think I needed to talk about my issues with her. He meant that he didn't feel I was handling my son wrong and that he thinks I'm a good mom.

Okay, so why am I mad???? Because nothing happens in the therapy room by accident!! He could've given me anyone but he didn't, he gave me someone who specializes in MY ISSUES.

He's done this before in small ways and I've noticed and thought it was cute. This is not cute!!! It is triggering my rejection/abandonment button again.

Anyway, she isn't taking new patients individually and I was given the name of someone else for my son. Something tells me T knew this and thinks I'll go in on Wed and say 'gee, what is DBT...' and this will open up his real agenda and I'll just go along with it.

Am I going off the deep end here? He'd probably say yes...!