Sorry to read that you are experiencing flashbacks from something you went through so long ago. Clearly you never really processed those events. I experienced flashbacks from so long ago myself and I was very frightened when experiencing these flashbacks. I could not understand why that was happening so many years later.

It's important to remember that whatever happened at that time was really not your fault and you did not know WHAT to do. Remember that it's always easier to look back and see things you could have done differently. It's important to understand how at that time you were much younger and you simply were not capable of understanding things like you do now in your life. Acknowledging these events are what slowly decreases the impact these flashbacks have on you, both visual and emotional as flashbacks contain both physical and emotional trauma.