The steps that you made forwards make sure if they won't give you the good results that you are expecting in short time, surely they would give you results after,
I mean being isolated and separated from them for years this needs time to make the changes appear,
Give time, and be patient,
What doesn't kill you makes stronger,
What doesn't kill you makes you fat, and any step forward is greatest attempt, i would rather make one step forwards than 1000 step backwards, or than staying glued in my place.