Hi Fuzzybear. Sometimes I am unsure when an OP wants to hear from others in a particular thread, or not. I don't know if you are welcoming them in this one, but I thought I'd write that I understand at least a bit how you feel. I have some trust issues with certain people. I usually describe it as "putting a see-through glass wall between myself and certain others". My husband has often observed that in me, as well, not with him, but between me and others. It also relates to my past painful experiences. My psychiatrist has often suggested I work on this with therapists. I've tried. I've made a teeny bit of progress. Some of this issue of mine definitely relates to my bipolar disorder, but some not.