This has really gone on too long..because Of the fact that I’m insecure and maybe I feel I don’t deserve better-but I clearly do. My ex boyfriend and I broke up in April..I got sick of being out on the back burner so I had to end things..who would want to be treated that way? I was always bending over backwards..but it was never enough. He has a very avoidant attachment style and that’s just not me....2 months post breakup I met up with him..but it was the same thing only this time I am not even his girlfriend..drinking in his house, and watching music videos..and either we get takeout or I would cook..he did cook a couple times but he never took me out. Smh..so we have continued hanging out only it’s gotten worse..as far as me treating him like a boyfriend when he hasn’t even earned it from me..he included me in his family holidays, but after Christmas ended he was back to his old self..basically if he isn’t working then I won’t hear from him again..sure, he will reach out if I let him alone but it’s a complete waste of time..I am clearly chasing him for attention and I’m exhausted. Even his friends show me more attention. His one friend took a liking to me, admiring the kind of woman I am and he blew him off as if I am “his” when I’m not..So I realize I am wasting precious time entertaining the bread crumbs of attention I get, and I was second guessing myself but it’s obvious that he has me around as an option..he admitted having a Napoleon complex too which is highly disturbing..I went no contact before but then he text me for some dumb reason and the drama started..so basically I am so emotionally exhausted that I feel powerless in this situation, and I want my power and good vibes back.