I remember this. And I remember that you had concluded he was a narcissist. It's hard to understand why or how you went back to him after all that, because I recall the whole story and when you left the first time. But no judgements... Iv'e gone back when I shouldn't have and have made similar mistakes. I think it would be good for you to break up, go back to therapy and figure out why you are attracted to toxic, unhealthy relationships that do you more harm than good. This guy is clearly no good for you, and never was.