Hiya love,
I know how you feel, noone understands unless they are us. Are you diagnosed bipolar? I am being assessed by the psych team first encounter today, but it explains the way I have been for years. Do you feel irritable all the time? sometimes i get a positive outburst in the bleak of feeling trapped in an irrational mind. are you on any medications? does anything you do distract you from how you are feeling?, because i can't escape.