Thanks bpcyclist. I grew up around university campuses my entire life. So, I wrongly assumed that would be the focal point of my life; become an academic myself. Didn't happen. I wasn't strategic enough, or mentally strong enough to maneuver around the institutional politics, arrogance, egos, and backstabbing that went on around me as a grad student. I failed myself in that way. Now, I'm afloat. ****ing Castaway in my own life with no ocean liner to rescue me so I may just drown.