I feel very much the same way. My birthday is on New Years Day, so when that day comes, I'm a year older. There was a time when I was very young that I looked forward to the New Year. It was exciting getting older and was optimistic that the next year will be better. Now I feel just the opposite.

As I've gotten older, I've inherited some health issues. So it seems like in getting older there will be more doctor appointments and procedures. They are dreaded plus it costs money. So now I dread the New Year coming.

This past year was pretty good for me. So it's hard to celebrate a good year that's going. It seems like the following year after a good one will not be as good.