About past stuff sometimes. I also realized I was going through a lot and was also only 13 at the time and wasn’t getting the proper treatment or meds. So while I need to take responsibility I should be more gentle with myself. Other stuff I’m doing now I have no idea why I’m so fixated on it. But I think it’s out of fear. These 2 people remind me of how I was when I was 13 and they bring back bad memories.