Slept A LOT over the weekend - all I want to do is sleep. The love of my life is away in rehab and I am not coping well - he hasn't called me all weekend and I can't call him and I honestly want to just disappear. What's funny is I am not really symptomatic, the bipolar is under control even with the depression feelings. I get up, shower, eat even do my school work and reach out to my friends. I just genuinely miss him terribly - I miss the way he smells, his crooked smile, his beautiful hands and the way he kisses me.

Le sigh.