So this is what happened for these past weeks:

My previous manager quit and replaced with two managers. One is awfully incompetent and toxic. The other one is fine, would like to work her with her under normal circumstances. But she can't save me from the other crazy manager.

Ever since their arrival, my tasks have been doubled to the point that I can't finish them under the deadlines anymore, despite me working overtime. I got so many messages from everyone about work, even during the day-off or after work. It feels like a terror. Once, I leashed out at everyone at work because they urged me to work during my planned leave. No one helps or back me up. Some nice coworkers (from another division) take a pity on me, but there's nothing they can do. The root behind this is because now we have two managers, two supervisors, and still only one designer: me.

I want to quit, but I still haven't found any job yet. The fine manager knew. She wanted me to stay, so I asked for a raise and hire a junior staff to help me out. The CEO refused the raise, but they agreed with the latter. Today I looked at their job ads, it turned out that they will pay the future junior staff higher than my salary. It's so disappointing.

What happened today:

Today is the last working day for this year. It ended with a hotheaded argument with the crazy manager. Apparently, she wants to change the old system which is actually unnecessary, which will triplet our division work. Why does she want to change it? Well she sees the fine manager as a rival and she doesn't want to lose, so she wants to make an 'innovation' by following the changes from the other manager.

(let me make it clear. The fine manager is hired to rebrand one of the old brand, so yeah there will be a lot of changes. Meanwhile, the crazy manager is hired for supporting the sales team with fine marketing strategies or programs. So, she does not have to make any changes with the existing brands. Anyway, she has not propsed any strategies nor programs yet).

Uggh... I wish I could control myself over that argument. I was so unprofessional, but I know I'm not the one to be blamed. She said that I shouldn't talk to her that way. She swore that she never been mad with anyone from my team. But yesterday, I heard that she shouted to one of the supervisors. It was not the first time anyway. So, who is the hypocrite now?

Why couldn't I get any job soon? I can't work under this pressure anymore.

(Funny thing is, somehow I feel happier after the argument. I guess I'm glad to made her a bad day)