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Welcome to the forums

You will find so many wonderful people here to help you and offer the support you need.
You are definitely not alone here at all. I went through a very difficult divorce 4 years ago and I have to say for the past year and a half is when things have really come together for me. I had a son with my ex...was in a physically and mentally abusive marriage....he was a sex addict....I could go on and on. There are so many similarities to your situation. I also lost my house due to foreclosure so I know where you are coming from there too.
I can tell you this though.....you will get better. There is hope and you will come out of all of this a stronger person. I know it is hard to hear that right now - I know hun - but you will get through this. I am here whenever you need to talk, cry or vent as well as so many other caring people.
To give you hope....yes I lost my house and was at one of my darkest times (and yes suicide was a thought then too) but I came through it. I now have another wonderful little boy(he's 2) - my oldest is now 7..I am in a great relationship...we live in a great place and I am back on my feet financially. It was no picnic believe me but I am so glad I am where I am today.
Please know that we care and keep posting.

Heather