hello 1soslow,

I really feel for you in what you're going through,it is so hard.I'm glad to hear that things are a little better for you and I truly hope you find those better friends that we keep being told are out there for us.I 'm still having difficulty with my friend saying she's not ready "yet",as if things are not final,as if she thinks she may want to be friends at some point.Perhaps,in a way,this is making it harder for me.I keep wondering,for the reasons I set out earlier,whether she really could be sincere in what she says.