im not really sure how to explain this but all my relationships go on a loop- I meet a guy, we start speaking online lots, catch feelings, we meet a few times and I seem to really like them. Then Ill suddenly be really cringed out buy them like a gradual “Ick”. Certain things they do will put me off so much that I cant even think about them, from stupid things like their walk/hair/height. It can get to the point where them touching me makes me feel physically sick. Ive ended every potential relationship because of this- but its not that I dont want to be dating someone long term.. its that I cant seem to keep my feelings for them? Is it because I have an unrealistic expectation of a “perfect” boyfriend- as I am a young model and know I can get (almost) any guy I wish so never know whos right? (and Im very very influenced by what other people think of them). Should I just push through this ”ick” feeling? Will it go away with time?