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Cyran0 said:

Or maybe it's the mind of an addict creating a justification, a loophole to get some sort of fix.

So damn it anyway, despite the sorrow and boredom and stress, I know I should just keep my seat on the wagon.

Cyran0

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It looks like you knew the answer all along, but the wise thing was to ask others anyway just for some healthy reassurance.

Good choice and good luck.