I fear I am ruining my marriage.

My husband has given me no reason to not trust him. I have been cheated on multiple times and lied to outrageously in the past. Therefore, I have trust issues.

Women find him attractive and have tried to hit on him, and I get jealous, possessive and angry over it.

It's like my emotions take over and I cannot control myself or how I feel.

I don't know how to get over my past. I don't know how to trust, even though we've been together a long time now and even though I know he loves me very much.

He tells me each time there's an issue over another woman, that he loses a part of himself. I am often living with the fear that he will lie to me and cheat on me, just as the others have.

I don't know how to get a handle on this.

How do you learn to trust someone FULLY when you've been cheated on and lied to in the past? Multiple times by multiple people?

I have not spoken with my therapist yet about this and am in fact, going to try and switch therapists.