Ugh, I hate it when that happens! Sorry that happened to your post, and thank you for your reply!
He is a non-cheater, or at least he tells me that. But I've been told that same exact thing before too, and then had that same person cheat on me.
What didn't help matters with my husband is he told me months ago that he prefers dark haired women. I am not dark haired in my opinion. I have light brown hair with fake blonde highlights. I color it so it looks blonder, but my roots are darker. I always felt that I'm not my husband's preferred type, and that instilled a deep insecurity within me for MONTHS, that made me envious and insecure around any other darker haired woman.
He claims that he views me as a dark haired woman. We've talked it out, but that's what mainly propelled my insecurity over the last year with him. It really did not help my trust issues when he told me this.
But when we first got together, he had told me I am the most beautiful woman he's ever seen. He says I take his breath away. I try to hold onto that knowledge, to reassure myself.
But in the back of my head, I'm always worried about him being MORE attracted to someone who has darker hair than I do. Wish he had never told me that.
This is partially what has fueled my mistrust, on top of already having trust issues.
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Last edited by Have Hope; Dec 31, 2019 at 10:25 AM.
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