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It's my belief that BP does affect our social interaction. At least, I know it affects mine. The few friends I have are women I've known from early school years. So we've been friends for over fifty years. And I have one friend I met twenty years ago. But even those friends are not people I'm extremely close to.
Every time I attempt to make a new friend it just doesn't happen. And I admit that I don't really want to make new friends. Honestly, I prefer my own company. And it's challenging enough to deal with my own mind, let alone having to cope with someone else's.
Something else that bothers me is when a friend doesn't communicate with me that much, then she has a sudden crisis in her life, calls me crying and begging me to call her because I'm "the only person" she wants to tell her troubles to.
Well, I appreciate the compliment, but she is always too busy or distracted to listen to my problems. I resent always being this person's therapist. Usually, that's the way my friendships go...me listening to someone's problems.
Anyway, I apologize for the vent.
Will you mention to your therapist how you feel about her comment? I think it would be very important for you to do so. You were triggered probably because her comment about your "not choosing" to socialize is a painful place for you. Maybe you feel guilty, or inadequate, or some other feelings that need to be dealt with?
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