Happy New Year's Eve everyone.
Today, I decided I will treat myself to Thai food to takeout for dinner, even though it is a little pricey. I'm just relaxing with my brother and a couple of family members and staying over there for the night. It helps my anxiety that not too many people will be there. Sometimes I look at others and feel pressure to do something more elaborate, but I remind myself that I am not into those big, loud places either way. As far as my depression goes, I still do feel pretty numb, and I still have to talk to my pdoc about this next week. Not sure how much of it is the meds or not. I am afraid of starting something new and experiencing the same results or worse than that. But decreasing my medication without adding something sounds risky, since I have been experiencing an episode making it nearly impossible to work. Anyway, it is taking a lot of energy to remain hopeful, but I am going to try to pull through somehow. I hope everyone has a nice day and evening.