No kidding, what was he expecting? You smiling with him being a jerk and a drunk? Tell him that now when you are done with him you are finally smiling, then block him. Enough of this dude

Oh, girl, I've been there. I've made so many mistakes when it comes to relationships. I've settled for far less than what I deserve out of loneliness too, so I fully understand that.

But that's how we learn.

You have to get to a point in life and with relationships where you're completely fed up with settling for less. SO fed up, that you're willing to tolerate the loneliness verses getting entangled with yet another person who will disappoint and hurt you.

Next time, when you're ready, you make sure that they're worthy first, before committing yourself emotionally and before even dating them exclusively. You have to adopt a vision of yourself that says I respect myself TOO much to accept anything less than what I truly want.