It's New Year's Eve and I'm by myself. Was going to have lunch with my friend, but he cancelled (I mentioned that on Daily Check In).

This was a pretty good year for me, so it's hard to celebrate it being over. I hate to see a good year go. Over the years in my life, the following year would
not be a good as the previous year if it was a good year. I have some dread for next year. I wish I could be optimistic, like I used to be. I should be but I'm not.