Grr, Im pissed. Why is it that when you finally find the courage to talk you have to go out of your way to do so??!!

I went to the doctors today. I never thought it was right to go to my GP about my depression and my anxiety and other things, because I have always seen them as treating my for coughs and colds n all that.
A few week ago I decided I'd had enough and so I stopped it all, dropped at all and decided to have a life. I stopped cutting, scratching, etc, I havent taken any painkillers at all (I got addicted to them) (Lol, I know), I've stopped myself from just going to bed in the daytime when I felt like it, I've stopped brewing up arguements for no reason with people... and all the rest. The only problem is, is my mood. Since I have stopped all this stuff I've struggled with my mood so badly its like Im on an emotional rollercoaster. I keep having panic attacks. The only thing that I do to comfort me is eat. I eat and eat and Im sure Im getting fat.
Anyway I'll get to the point. Because Im on the waiting list to see my therapist I went to the doctors to see if they could help me and perscibe anything to calm me down when I have my moments, just for the time being... <font color="blue"> </font>

and she wanted to know EVERYTHING. I was rushing through it all just to get to the point where she was supposed to go- "yes I think I have something for you.. here we are!!" and give me the pills. But no, she gave me a depression and anxiety checklist questionnairre. Obviously I'm %#@&#! depressed, or I wouldnt be flipping out and having panic attacks etc etc. I've been through all this before, I dont need a diagnosis, I know whats wrong with me. I need something that will HELP.

"Sorry but I dont think that giving me a peice of paper is going to help me right now..." I should have come out with it, but I didnt.

I know shes only trying to do her job but I still went in asking for help and I just came out feeling even worse

babyg xxx